Everything r jz wonderful….
U never knew how wonderful is ur life until u really feel & realized dat u r blessed.
That’s wat I am feeling now. 1st of all in dis yr, I jz broke off a 9 yrs r/ship. Then, I ‘crawled’ in & out from d ‘grave’ 4 2 horrible months. Unbearable! 3rd, I came bc clubbin non-stop 4 another 2 ‘un-concious’ months (however… something good, something sweet & something surprising during this 2 months. I give it an 8.) So, here I am now… Workacholic!!!! I start this job wit a ZERO. Anyway, thx 2 everything in dis 4 months, I knew I don think like I used 2 b already. I learned 2 say NO 2 most of d things including my desires. I won say I know exactly how 2 re-act in times 2 come bt I knew I am analyzing every little details. Dat shd help alot already.
Also, I would nt pass those time if without my family & friends. Haha…. Felt kinda shame havin 2 say this. Everyone is concious when they gave advice bt when it comes 2 they r d victim,… sense r lost! Suddenly impossible decision r made easily. Seems like too easy 2 ever said… I always wonder why bt ‘emotional always over-power rational’. Huh… anyone wanna challenge this phrase here?? Guess u never knew until u r in.
Yesterday while I was on my home from Tawau, there was an accident along d long way from tawau 2 L/Datu. Jz 1 car. Toyota Hilux (double cab), grey color. I didnt catched d plate number bt d front car was all kemek into d drive and front passenger seats. Crashed up d small kelapa sawit hill. Sorry, mind my language… When out car passes by, i didnt dare 2 c if there is anyone trapped inside. I am over-imaginative type. So, better don look at it. Then all of a sudden, I thought of him. Could dat be him? With his dad? Nah! Bt… wat if it’s him there? I cant resist 2 take out my hp n sent him a sms. I didnt call. Don know why. I asked where he was bt in return he asked who am I. After I replied, he said he was in mile 4. Thank god. It’s not him.
I wonder how many of u ever did d same stupid things like I am. I mean, I don hv 2 do this. I can just simply ignored everything. Still, whenever something happen, I was afraid it was him. I cant stop thinking & then send him an sms asking where he was. If he replied, Im relieved bt if he don! I am gettin more and more worried. U get what I mean??? We broke off and it’s only a month relationship bt I treat it like we were already into a few yrs and I cant let go. What d hell…. D*** me!
Tell me… How many of u ever done or been in this situation like mine and did stupid things. Share ur experiences. . . We may jz gain something here…. Post me ur comment here….
