Wat u mean by lettin go?
Im abt to headed to my bed when I decided to checkout d latest chicks & hunky around frenster. Came to spot a lad which really impressed me. I kinda knew someone who ‘related’ to her. I wont say who was dat cos that’s not the topic (well… it’s abt him actually).
Seems 2 me all three of them attached pretty close to each other. They r siblings and very, very much care of each other. Jz like d three of them and there they r. One of them r away from d other two bt they still keep close communication. I kinda admire how they keep it up. I don know wat happen 2 d family bt it doesnt matter.
I wonder how come it dont happen 2 me. I jz had 2 let go. 1st, i do think jz don think & do more works on anything as long as not abt him. Still, that’s not it. I lost my sense in some way. Short 2 it, I cant let f***in go. I mean it’s not d**n easy. D last time I ‘had to’ let go was abt 10 yrs ago and Im forced 2. It took more than half a s**t yr 2 finally attached again.
Know wat I do? I did all d household works TWICE daily! Still got plenty of time then I sat alone in d balcony & think of him. Think of our times together & how I wish I knew wat happen that divided us up. I never knew till now.
4 dis recent very short relationship, I also never knew wat happen but all I can feel is suffocated & I need 2 breath again. I chosen 2 breath & resulted I had 2 loosen him up. Hard to explain anymore.
This is human. No one will ever understand and will ever satisfied. D**n un-explainable. So s**t sleepy now. Good fcuk & DG nite.
